说自己，笑容为何不见了 (┬＿┬)↘

就算笑不出来

在大学里挣扎求存了两年半，还是没有找到大学给我的归属感，每次假期即将来临，都会很有活力地倒数着，可是倒数的时间却过得比什么还慢。好不容易到了假期，就算好好利用每一天，充实的过每一个在家里醒来的日子，可是假期却又过得快的仿佛什么都还没有做到一样。

知道...都知道，这是心理作用，我也试过催眠自己很喜欢这个大学，可是我自己也不愿被骗。说实在的，没有好吃的也没有娱乐，足以致我于死地。没关系，渐渐麻木了，幸好遇到好的朋友跟室友，就算不多，就那么一两个，也足够让我的大学生活增添了光彩。

我不喜欢大学有几个原因，我没有自己的朋友圈子，我是个独行侠，我不想我行我素，其实我很三八，喜欢一大群朋友一起胡闹疯癫，遭人白眼。可是没有这个缘分，让我遇到那些人。我偏好自然形成的朋友关系，不是去苛求的。

我不是那么的高尚，只是不怎么懂得交际。认识我的人知道我是怎么样的人，我喜欢在你们身边我扮演的角色。不认识我的人会觉得我很凶很酷，甚至不敢接近我跟我交谈...嗯，就这样吧...这个就是主要的原因。

还有就是，我的主修，多媒体，我有这一行的天分吗？常常抚心自问道....我不知道，我到底有兴趣吗？其实这科目蛮有趣的，我也愿意学习这方面的知识。只是有时候遇到困难，真的不知道从何下手，也不知道找谁帮忙，需知道无事不登三宝殿是不好的事><可是不耻下问才能取得成功。

心理挣扎一番之后，我还是会去问朋友，有的人很好，都会循循善诱的解释...你会有好报的，感激你~有的就...假装不懂你说什么，还是回你说：什么都不知道，这些问题都是较早之前的学期才会遇到的人，他们不想跟你分享所懂的...

不过近来还好都没有遇到了。之前不会想，遇到几次这么冷淡的人，懂又说不懂，让我觉得大学的人很自私，真的没有心去学习。现在就想通了，没有搞不定的事，看你有没有心去做而已。

就是这个想通了的想法，有时候一个人面对不会不懂的事情，真的很大压力，所以才会讨厌这里。多么怀念以前中学跟朋友组织的study group啊...不要怕不会，全摊出来分享，大家一起寻找答案，几个脑总胜过一个人的呆脑。所以中学的课业和中六的课业，对我来说真的比现在轻松一百倍。成绩虽然不是很特出，可是也算不错的^^

还有最后一个，没有好吃的也没有娱乐...算了这个说了也多余，在不喜欢的环境已经学会往好的方面想。既然都身处森林了，那么好好享受大自然吧^^至于那些有是有死苍蝇，有时发臭的食物，就当作是一种磨练，因为吃过这些才了解到家里的饭菜，就算再清淡，那种味道，也是无可取代的。当然，毋庸置疑地更加感恩家里的食物^^



也会强颜欢笑...



先写到这里了，还有功课要做~~晚安^^ 



DiGi iPhone 4 life

DiGi iPhone 4 Me

Huh? Why I want an iPhone??

Dun be silly, you know that... 

... ...aren't you??!!


All because of... 

❤❤❤

I love him!!!

 ❤❤❤

" I ❤ iPhone " coz...

❤ you're TRENDY  

 

❤ you're FABULOUS

❤you're SUPPORTIVE

❤ you're UNBEATABLE  

❤ you're  OUTSTANDING

 

❤ you're IRREPLACEABLE

 

❤ you're   MARVELOUS 

 

❤ you're   TERRIFIC

❤ you're  SMART

❤ you're MINE

iPhone! 

I just cannot simply describe how I love you and how I need you~

So, here I sing a song for you to express my luvvvvvv~ 

Plz understand my heart^^ 

gimme a tempo, . . .

Here we go!!

❤❤ You're My iPHONE Song ❤❤

You Are My  iPhone

My only  iPhone.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

 Please don't take my  iPhone  away~~~

 

The other nite, dear,

As I lay sleeping,

I dreamed I held you in my arms.

When I awoke, dear,

I was mistaken

And I hung my head and cried.

You Are My  iPhone

My only  iPhone.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

 Please don't take my  iPhone  away~~~ 

   

I'll always love you

And make you happy

If you will only say the same

But if you leave me

To love another

You'll regret it all some day :(

❤240910❤

Today is Friday, I've been invited to be model for the workshop of UNDERSTANDING THE WORKINGS OF YOUR CAMERA that organized by Encik Amir (my lecturer of Internet Tech Services).

Thanks Encik Amir for giving me this opportunity, although my performance maybe disappoint u and the entire participants. I didn't pose well...I mean seriously I stood like a dead for more than one hour there... 

I hope u didn't regret for choosing me as the model....Zaidi>< Actually Zaidi asked me to find my fren as model as well, coz they basically need two models for this workshop, but unfortunately the frens I asked all busy today. So, I attended alone....

I dun wan to give any excuse for my bad performance but I really not used to face so many cameras in one time...I was freaking out there...I smiled until my lips was trembling...LOL, I shouldn't mention it...so shameful...

Here are some of the pics taken today: 

Encik Amir was giving me tips for posing better...sorry I dare not to pose in front of so many ppl><

❤     ❤     ❤

Behind the "scene" , I deliberately make up two hours early today. Coz normally Ill take long time on heavy make-up so yea tats why. And today, I finished all the thing included dressed well, make-up, and cam-whore a while before out, its exact 2 hours! ^^y~wee~~

Heavy make-up, for me, It means put on eyes shadow, stick on fake eye lashes, wear contact lens, and mascara which I wont do for daily make up. Normally I dun do this except this kind of function or dinner. Coz heavy make up take very long time on removing it which I hate the most. I'm lazy for remove make up, it's totally tiring. Usually Ill pay attention on eye make-up, this time the same.

1st:

BB cream + contact lens √ (checked)

2nd，3rd，4th， 5th:

eye make up base + eye shadow + eye line + mascara √

6th：

eye brow √(checked)

Last：

Touch up and then tadaaaa!!

Im always better in showing expression while self cam-whoring>< well, a big SAD!!

Tats all for today, til next time^^

Hatyai on (170910-180910)

My family and I have planned to travel to Hatyai before they sending me back to UUM for a 2D1N short short trip. But WTF I lost my border pass!!!  I wanted to travel with my family so badly how can I lost my important border pass at this time?!  I tot I brought it home, but I couldn't find it in my handbag! WHERE DID I PUT IT??? I even messaged my fren and my roomate asking them about my border pass, I hope i can get some useful info from them but how did they know?  Still I did it. @@ I was annoyed with it all the time until I found it in my drawer when I got back to my hostel room...Thanks god thanks everything, thanks for giving me back my border pass. I was so greatful bcoz my border pass was juz appeared blank in my memory. I am really a typical BIG HEAD PRAWN...urgh....

exciting exciting XD

Anyway I was continued my excitement in the car...LOL XD This time I tot I could be the tour guide for them since I hv just traveled there with my dad last time, but then I still cannot remember the road there...sorry I dun have the talent to recognize all the road I have ever been to...seriously, I even dunno how to get to the places in Ipoh that I've always been to. I need a GPS so badly.(not now, I mean other time!)

Mama used to be a reliable 'GPS' for us, but now she has a little bit malfunction with this. XD. Sorry mama, I'm not meant to blame or what, you're still good in being mama to us, but no longer 'GPS'. Hehe. And at least you used to be a good one... but I didn't even inherit a little bit of your genes in this area.OMG. SO, we were used the real GPS on guiding us to reach our destination in Hatyai. The places I wanted to recommend are "Klonghae floating market" and "Kam Eng restaurant".

Our tour guide

And one thing I wanted to mention is, the old SAKURA Hotel not really nice. because too old the building, and the room smell bad. I think they didn't maintain it bcoz there is a new SAKURA is built juz opposite the old one. The feeling this hotel brought me was...so scary>< It was like wat I watched in the horror movie~~~~~~I dunno I juz couldn't sleep well that night, but of coz nothing happened, thanks god and Amitabha although they gave us the last room in the corner... Those "thing" or something bad is usually visit the last corner room, isn't it? The ghost stories always telling like this! SO....feeling bad~~~~~ I wish I could stay a better hotel next time when I travel there, I mean Novotel or Lee Garden will be better for me^^ And they are more convenient bcoz night market  is just near to them. Nonit to ride "dut dut car" summore^^

Day 1 (170910)

Took a break for having 鱿鱼蕹菜 at GURUN

My pocket money for the trip LOL

Traffic Jam at DANOK

Kan Eng Restaurant, my FAV in Hatyai^^

Guava juice

Keng Som Fish

Petai with Cincaluk

Pat ker Pau with pork

Ba Duk Fu

These fishes I dun like XX

night market in Hatyai main street

Thailand coconut

Does it taste nice?

Yea It is nice^^

Souvenirs bought by Da Jie, 3 of them stolen by me >_>

I want to buy it for my coming my nephew, SO CUTE!!!

Then we off to have "bird nest"

Mama with sweetest smile

Bird nest??

The night in Hatyai ended like this^^

 

Day 2 (180910) 

was looking for 牛肉面档 on the street

Requested to take a picture for Jie Fu Thomas XD

Yea We're looking for u!!

SMile Jie FU!!

Ok I know U tried ur best....

Oh.....

Mama & me

Sugar Cane Juice

OwhMyFavourite

YummYumm

It taste like 烧包

Mama & me again^^

Was planning to go Klonghae floating market

Unfortunately we're goin on a wrong timing

Operation hour is 3-9pm, we're too early

Another 牛肉面档near the floating market

Dajie & mama

This one different wit morning one

King of  4

ask for more

The stall

Tesco in Hatyai

Ice Ice Time

Strawberry flavour for me

Fried Oyster

- made in Thailand

WOW its bigger than made in M'sia one

Can u feel the yumm from my mama expression?

Start going back TT

Anyway we have had a good time in Hatyai with each other. Appreciate my family for bringing me a good memory before getting back to the JUNGLE...

Last but not least